32 weeks...

This week I started my twice weekly NST's.  So far so good.  OB still isn't happy with my fasting numbers.  I'm trying but I can't control what happens when I sleep.  We got a lot done in the nursery this week.  Still have some work to do but it's slowly coming together.  All the bedding has been washed.  I've washed all the the clothes, towels and blankets.  Had a small mishap on the steam cleaned carpet in the nursery but I'm confident I can get the stain out.  We still need to clean up the changing table and get it upstairs and put the butterfly decals on the wall.  Last thing I'm going to do is get the lampshade, curtains and rocker recliner.  The biggest hurdle I have is getting the stuff I got from friends out of the living room.  Our downstairs looks like a tornado went thru it.  Quite an embarrassment if someone was to come over and into our home.    The big thing I've noticed is my lack of energy and ability to move easily.  I tire quickly and need to take frequent breaks so everything is taking longer than normal.

Symptoms I felt this week:

• Breasts itchy, rashy and getting sore again
• Tired and out of breath. 
• Hard to move around.  Getting out of bed is an ordeal
• Belly popping out 
• Very full belly and very tight sometimes.  Could be Braxton Hicks.
• Baby kicks and movement all over.  Stomach sometimes moves when she moves.  
• Sleeping issues a lot
• Stomach hard.  Not sure what position baby is in.  Hopefully head down.  

29 weeks...

This week wasn't so good.  My Endo wasn't happy with my blood sugars.  Neither was my OB.  I received a call from the MFM group to make an appointment to review my blood sugars and prescribe insulin which I'm already on.  I use a pump.  My OB wanted them to take over management of my diabetes but they don't manage pumps.  I went in the next day to the MFM and they did an exam and everything was measuring perfect.  My weight, the babies size, etc.  All is good.  The MFM said he would call my Endo to discuss.  I felt so lectured and yelled at.  So did J.  He promised not to push any more of his delicious desserts on me till our little one is born.  We have an appointment next week with my OB.  I'm not looking forward to it.

On another note, we picked up the crib, mattress, dresser and travel system.   My family purchased the travel system for us.  The crib, mattress and dresser was purchased using the money from the gift card from my co-workers.  I need to start working on those thank you cards tonight and get them done for Monday.  I'm also making a lot of progress in cleaning up the bedrooms.  It's going slow but I'm hoping by Thanksgiving we have the rooms all finished.

Symptoms I felt this week:

• Rash has gone away on my my breasts
• Tired and out of breath.  Still finding it hard to walk at lunch at my usual pace
• Finding it harder to move freely and tie my shoelaces
• Belly popping out 
• Very full belly and very tight sometimes.  Could be Braxton Hicks.
• Baby kicks and movement
• Sleeping issues
• Blood sugars have been high but now I'm being more careful with my food choices

25 weeks...

We went on the hospital tour last Monday.  Now we know where to go and what to expect.   We even got to experience it this weekend.  Friday, 3AM I woke with a headache.  I took some Tylenol but woke up with it anyway.  Took more Tylenol and high blood sugar and it still didn't help.  My blood sugar was high that day and it didn't help that I had a bagel for breakfast.  Anyway, called my OB at 7PM and she said to try Sudafed and Tylenol.  Unfortunately, I was shaky all night and still had a headache.  Felt even worse by then so I called her back after I ate (I had hoped some food would help but it didn't) so she said go to labor and delivery.  We checked in, they hooked me up to monitors and did blood work.  Everything was normal so my Dr said I could take Benedryl and Zyrtec.  I took the Benedryl last night and slept so hard.  It felt so good.  This morning I took the Zyrtec.  I still have a twinge of headache but not like yesterday and I feel better knowing it's just allergy related.  Mold count is really high right now.  My blood sugar is still up and down.  I'm not sure if it's related to the additional meds I'm taking or not.  Could be just pregnancy and I need more insulin as I progress.

Symptoms I felt this week:

• Breasts don't hurt but now are itchy
• Tired
• Headache (unrelated to pregnancy thank goodness)
• Belly popping out
• Very full belly 
• Baby kicks and movement
• Sleeping issues

20 weeks...

This week was an exciting week for us.  1st, we had our regular OB appointment.  It took the Dr a moment to find the heartbeat which scared J for a moment.  I was looking at the OB and remembering one of my friends mentioning that sometimes it takes a bit to find the heartbeat with a Doppler.  But all was okay.  The next day we had our anatomy scan.  We got to see our baby move around.  It really makes it all seem real.  And the best part was that we're having a little girl.  J and I are so super excited about that.  At work, I was told I had that new mommy glow.

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Symptoms I felt this week:

• Breasts semi hurt
• Tired
• Stomach is getting bigger and rounder
• Sciatica pain
• I feel cramps and back aches on and off.  Stomaching is feels taut sometimes.  
• I think I felt the baby move today.  I felt some weird flutters.  Felt like butterflies in my stomach.  

19 weeks...

Well week 19 was not too bad.  I'm starting back up with walking and my company has a challenge in the works from 8/29-9.25 and that always helps keep me honest.  My cold is nearly all gone and I feel so much better.  Presently we are trying to find a new home for our problem cat.  We just can't get trust her.  She is very unpredictable and has hurt me.  Sometimes she's playing other times she's getting even because I won't let her do something she wants.  So far none of the shelters will take her and I've reached out to an old co-worker that has a farm in her family.  I'm thinking that's her only option other than putting her down. One of the shelters actually said I should do just that.  I'd rather her be able to run and play then have her life snuffed out intentionally.

Anyway, I have my OB app today and MFM tomorrow for the anatomy scan.  I'm looking forward to finding out what this little one will be.

Symptoms I felt this week:

• Breasts hurt on and off
• Tired
• Stomach is getting bigger and rounder
• Sciatica pain
• I feel pains in my abdomen in different areas.  Guess things are stretching out to fit baby

17 weeks...

So, we had our OB appointment last Wed when I was officially 17 weeks.  This app was only to listen to the heartbeat.  With it came lots of kicking from the little one.  I still don't feel the kicking yet but hoping soon.  On Friday I started having a sore throat and feeling bad.  By nightfall, it was a full blown cold,  I've been miserable all weekend and even now.  All I can take is Tylenol.  Whoop dee do.  I might as well take nothing.  Well, it's for the greater good, right?  I just keep trying to tell myself that over and over again.


Symptoms I felt this week:

• Breasts don't hurt as much since I bought bras that fit
• Tired but probably because of this nasty old cold
• Stomach looks a bit bigger.  
• Sneezing and coughing from this crazy cold

15 weeks...

We got the results of the blood work I had back at my 12/13 week ultrasound with the MFM.  The baby is healthy.  All markers are 1 in a 10,000 range which is a very low risk for down's or the trisomies.  What I am disappointed about was that they didn't run the test to find out the gender after they said they would.  If it was never mentioned I never would have been so upset.  And of course, now I have to wait till 20 weeks according to the nurse because insurance won't pay for another blood test.  Another crappy issue I have is that I had to call them to find out the results.  They didn't bother to send it to my OB nor did they call to let me know.  I finally messaged my OB office and they said to call the MFM directly.  I'm not happy with the communication in that office.  I will say that the next time the nurse says J can't come in the room with me, I'm going to say I want him with me.  She wanted me alone so she can take vitals and ask me about being safe at home.  Then after seeing her, I had to go back and wait in the waiting room for another 15 minutes or so.  Next came the ultrasound with someone else now.  Then walks in another nurse for the blood work.  Then the doctor who said he wanted me to do a 24 hour urine test to make sure my kidney's are functioning.  Of course no one spoke to me about it.  I also had the first nurse hand me a bunch of papers.  Blood sugar logs sheets but no one bothered to discuss it with me.   The whole appointment was so overwhelming.  Right now I'm just so disappointed and pissed off.  I am glad the baby is healthy though.  I know that's the most important part and I'm trying hard to focus on that. 

Symptoms I felt this week:

• Breasts still hurt but less than last week.  Still need to go bra shopping.
• Feeling sick but usually right before bed which is also extreme exhaustion
• Still tired
• Still feeling full in my belly
• Constipation (so joyful)
• Headaches on and off.

12 weeks...

I had my OB app last Thursday.  No ultrasound this time or blood work but we did get to hear the baby's heartbeat.  She found it pretty quickly and it was music to our ears.  Nice and fast too.   I have my MFM app on Tuesday morning.  They'll be doing an ultrasound and blood work for this one.  My OB mentioned that one of the tests will give us the gender.  We're super excited to find out what our baby is.  It will take 2 1/2 weeks though.  Hoping it goes by fast.

Symptoms I feel this week:

• Nauseous every night
• Sore breasts and larger
• Stomach is getting larger
• Tired
• Forgetful
• Constipated. (Loving that one)

8 weeks...

We had our first OB appointment last Wednesday.  It was so overwhelming.  I met my new doctor and nurse.  She went through a whole lot of info that we're still trying to process.  I'm still waiting for the MFM doctors office to call me.  We got to see and hear our little bumble bee.  Heart rate was 157 and measured exactly 8 weeks.

Symptoms of pregnancy this week:  

• Very bloated.  Sometimes need to drive home with my jeans opened. 
• Breasts heavy and hurt
• Nausea on and off.  Seems mostly on these days depending on how and what I'm eating
• Dizzy on and off
• Fatigue on and off.  (Especially sleepy around 2PM every day)
• Blood sugar going wacko.  Highs and lows.

Follow up ultrasound results....

I was able to get in to the monitoring clinic at noon last Tuesday.  I was having so much anxiety and fear going in.  I was so afraid of seeing my baby had died after having such a wonderful ultrasound prior to the long weekend.  But my little sticky bun was still going strong.  In just 4 days, baby was bigger and heart rate was faster.  Both J and I were so relieved.  And as of now, I have no more bleeding or spotting.  The tech did say she could see the area of blood in question.  She also mentioned that a lot of women that go through IVF, bleeding seems to happen.  I'm feeling better but I can't help but think that every ultrasound will be a milestone to the next step and I'll always feel a little fear.  Maybe it's PTSD.  So much has gone wrong that it's so hard to imagine that it can all go alright.  I have my first OB appointment coming up on Wednesday.  Right now I'm feeling okay but I'm expecting to get anxious as the appointment gets closer.  Deep breath in and out.  

Ultrasounds and nightmares....

I had my 6 week 2 day ultrasound.  I was so terrified but she found the sac and baby right away.  Then we got to see the flicker of the heart.  It was so surreal and magical.  I had tears of joy coming down my face.  Baby measured 6 weeks so right on target.

We were so ecstatic.  We crossed the first hurdle and we saw our baby with a good strong heartbeat.  I wound up taking a 2 1/2 hour nap.  We had dinner and when I went to the bathroom I noticed a little blood on the toilet paper.  I was worried.  Then in the middle of the night, more blood.  Almost morning and the toilet was full of blood.  Now I'm scared.  I called my RE at 4:45 AM.  The on call Dr said to drink water and lay down and relax.  She'll follow up with the on call nurse in the morning.  I had an eye Dr app and so we went to that.  While I was there I passed a huge clot.  Now I'm thinking the worst.  The nurse called me back and she said lots of women call with bleeding and it's usually all okay.  She told me what an emergency would be and to go to an ER in that scenario but she mentioned subchorionic hematoma that was basically a bleed not relevant to the pregnancy.  She went through all the possibilities with me.  I don't have any real cramping.  And after that huge clot the bleeding seemed to have slowed down.  Now I just have spotting when I wipe.  Maybe it will be okay after all. I'm hoping to see my OB this week if possible.  Praying for good news.