Can't stay focused...

I'm not sure why.  Maybe because I feel stress about my job.  Maybe too many other distractions.  The fire in me has dwindled when it comes to trying to start an online affiliate business.  I want to do it but maybe now is not the right time.  My job has been demanding lately.  My daughter has activites during the week.  I'm constantly trying to clean and organize the house.  We want to buy this house.  We need an appraisal.  The owning company has made an offer but we are going to see what the appraisal comes in at. Plus, we may get a loan to take care of all our debt with one payment.  So many things going on at once.  I'm just so tired.  I'm also trying to lose the last 10 lbs which seems so difficult but that I'm not giving up.  

Struggling....

I'm scared about my job.  I know I need to do something but I feel so stuck.  I want to try affiliate marketing to earn something extra but I feel like all I do is fail.  Nothing seems to work these days.  What's wrong with me?  Why can't I focus?  I need to do this but I feel like there is a wall I keep hitting.  I need to do so much and just can't get my act together these days.  

Affiliate Marketing....again

So, I'm back to trying affiliate marketing again.  Keeping the cost down and growing my page on instagram privately.  I'll do my best.  Post daily and try and gain traction.  I chose a book sale to help women trying to get pregnant.  I know in my case, I needed a doctors intervention but lifestyle changes can make a big difference as well.  I'm excited to try again.  I like making reels and these are more personal to me because of my struggles.

3rd Grade is over...

This year has gone by faster than I have ever thought it could.  G has grown 3 inches in less than a year and it's so noticable if you look at her start of school year to the end of school year.  Crazy isn't it.  One minute I'm begging and pleading for a baby and now I have a 9 year old little girl that I love tremendously.  She has daycare (camp in the summer) and they have lots of fieldtrips starting tomorrow.  I'm so excited for her and I know she'll have the best time.  That's my girls story.

My story is not as great.  I'm worried about my job and what's happening daily with it.  I'm hoping I still fit into the company but we are going into uncharted waters and my fear is rising.  I've been at this company for 20 years and for the first time, I feel unsure of my future in it.  AI has taken over and they are looking for efficiencies.  I need to get with the program or I'll be out of a job and starting over. And right now, that seems very scary to me. It's forcing me to look deep and see what I can do without starting over.  I decided to try affiliate marketing again.  It's worth a shot.

I started a new Instagram account but keeping my identity private.  Now to see how it goes but here is my link to my blog page, The Invisible Catlady

Update to our lives....

I haven't posted in quite a bit so this is a catch up.  We've had a lot of changes.  We fired the last ABA company.  The care was inconsistant.  Constant changes caused additional behavior problems and the last one decided when my daughter was having a super hyper day and doing dangerous things, she decided to report me to CPS.  Nothing was founded and case was closed.  These people are supposed to be helping me and instead they did the opposite.  I didn't trust them at all after that.  We have a new ABA company and it took months to get onboard.  We started when school started and got one right after Thanksgiving and she lasted 1 month.  The next was a him/her and that person lasted 2 months.  We have someone new who is also a Kindergarten teacher and doesn't live too far away.  Hoping she'll be around much longer than the last few.  G seems to be getting along better than the others she's had.  She's almost done with 3rd Grade.  She was doing 70's-80's in the first semester then her teacher went on maternity leave and things slipped drastically.  But now she's in the 70's so I'm pleased with that.  She doesn't like school so getting her to do work is very hard.  Getting her to read is also very hard.  She's currently in the highest class for swimming which is Swim Force but I promised she can quit when school ends.  Swim Force is more competitive and they work to build stamina.  She absolutely hates it because it makes her so tired. 

Other than that, we have end of year activities going on this week and next.  Art fair tonight, Spring party next Friday and then school ends.  G already said 13 days left but that includes weekends.  Funny how she's counting down. LOL.  

3rd Grade pic of my princess

Already July....

This year is going by quickly.  G hasn't been doing as well as I'd like her to do in school.  I'm hoping to get some new things set up so she can practice reading and writing a bit more.  Hoping her teacher is also much better than what she had last year.  We also switched daycares.  It became apparent that no matter the circumstances, my daughter would be written up.  They would automatically take another child at it's word without talking to my daughter.  So we are now in another daycare and they let RBT's into the facility.  However, we just had an incident and my daughter along with another girl, bullied a child with special needs.  They were both involved but only my daughter was moved to another room.  Again, she's being singled out as the troublemaker.  It makes my heart sad.  But the BCBA is having a meeting with the staff and was going to ask some questions about that.  In addition, I've been explaining over and over how some conversations are inappropriate and that's what got her in trouble.  She basically asked the little girl if she knows what gay means and the other girl asked her if she knows what special needs means.  I've reached out to her therapist for some assistance.  Social stories that can help her understand what she did was wrong.  It's hard to punish someone that doesn't understand what she did.  I think that's what's most frustrating of all.  Her lack of understanding.