The waiting game...

New donor has be selected.  Now it's back to the waiting game.  We need a second recipient.  I'm praying it doesn't take too long.  It took a few weeks after I made the selection on 12/31.  Let's hope it will be the same situation.  I've been hoping that I'm pregnant before my next birthday.  If I were to look on the bright side, I have more time to get my A1C under control.  I never realized how hard it would be to control my blood sugar.  I feel lucky that I have an endo that works with me on all of this.  But this is a lifetime of food tracking and measuring my carbs per meal for the rest of my life.  I've also committed to doing 10 miles on the treadmill per week.  I think it will really help my blood sugar control as well.  The better control I have now, the safer it will be when I'm pregnant and that's the prize I'm counting on.  

A snag in the plans...

I guess this is what I get for opening my mouth.  Should have kept quiet till everything was in place. The donor has decided not to move forward.  She doesn't think this is the right path for her.  I suppose it's better to know now than after medication has been purchased.  Anyway, I'm back to searching profiles again.  

Waiting for the schedule...

Testing...check
Loan...check
Schedule from nurse...coming up soon, maybe this week.

Everything is in the works.  Just waiting on my schedule from the nurse.  It's been a few days but I know she has to coordinate with two other people besides me.  I can't believe we are finally here.  I am so full of hope and pray that this time it works.  I want this to work on the first try but it's nice to know we have three full tries and money back if it doesn't work.  But, I really think it will this time. My cousin said this is my year and I want to believe that too.  It's important to be positive and I do feel positive this time.

Job fair....

J made it to the job fair today and he has an interview set up in March with the airline of his choice. I'm happy but worried at the same time.  Praying the transfer doesn't happen at that time.  I think it's unlikely but I still have the worry in the back of my mind.  The other thing that annoyed me was that it was the only airline he went to.  I was hoping he'd go to some of the others and get some interview experience.  Sometimes I don't understand him at all.  I'm just hoping all this works out.  He's trying to get home tonight and ran into roadblocks with that too.  He's about to land at Midway but needs to get over to O'hare for the car.  I'm worried about how much this will cost us.  Maybe I could convince him to take a shuttle bus that leaves at 9:15 from Midway.  I saw it online but have no idea how this works.  It's not that pricey either.  Well, we'll see.  He's still in the air right now.  

Crazy week....

This has been a crazy week for us.  We traveled to the clinic on Sunday for a Monday procedure and consult.  During the consult we asked about how many embryos we could put back in.  Since I have diabetes and it's an added complication and unless the quality of the embryos are not good he's recommending one embryo.  We'll take that recommendation since a twin pregnancy could end badly for me. Hysteroscopy went well.  My Dr was able to remove the polyp.  He said it was very small and my uterus looked great.  J also had a semen analysis done along with freezing him sperm.  Needless to say we got a lot done.  Since there was a blizzard heading to the North East, we thought it best to go home same day.  We were both pretty exhausted but we made it home.  I slept most of the day away on Tuesday and Wednesday we did some running around to get ready for J's job fair.  He left today.  I asked him the usual about being packed up and he said yes, yes, yes.  So imagine my surprise when he calls me from Dallas and says "I don't know what to do".  Then he says he left his white shirt and tie at home.  I was mortified.  On the plane down he sat in the JS and one of the crew has an interview with Spirit coming up.  He said he went to the job fair in November and it was a mini job interview.  So he's panicking about that too.  The job fair details say suit and tie.  So needless to say that without that he might as well not go.  Luckily he was able to get a courtesy car to a mall and he shopped quickly.  I gave him the size shirt so he could just find the size and go.  Now he's reviewing the interview gouges to see about the questions they might ask.  Living with J can be challenging and stressful.  Today I also got my contract from Attain.  I will have to wait for J to come home because I need his signature and copy of his license. I can't believe it's happening so quickly.  My nurse said it could be finished by March/April.  I just so excited and hopeful.  

Becoming a reality....

A few days ago my nurse emailed me and said my donor was selected by a secondary recipient.  I immediately became super excited.  This means after my hysteroscopy next week, we can start moving forward.  I guess I'll get all the details when I go down next week.  I was so afraid it would take months to do this.  I guess it still can.  Donor needs to go through testing and pass with then we all have to be synced up.  I'm hoping by March/April will be doing the transfer.  I'm just guessing but a girl can dream, right?

On another note, my Endo started me on meal time insulin.  It seems my after meal blood sugars are over 200 most of the time.  It makes me a little sad.  I'm realizing that there is no turning back the clock and just being normal ever again. I'll be forever tied to testing and measuring my food and taking insulin for the rest of my life.  And honestly, it's just so exhausting all the time.  Trying to figure out my carbs for each meal so I can give myself the right dose of insulin.  But it's a life change I have to do.  Especially if I'm going to have a baby this year.