Two years ago on Mother's day...

My life changed.  J's life changed.  That's the day I had a positive pregnancy test.  Just that previous Sunday we went to South Carolina for our transfer.  The next day our miracle was brought to us.  Our lives have never been the same since.  At the time we did the transfer, I could never imagine how it would feel to be pregnant let alone a Mom.  I remember how much I tried to be hopeful and prayed.  At the time, I wasn't sure how I would make the transition to trying to have a baby to actually being pregnant and then having her.  She truly is a miracle that saved me and J.  He's different.  I'm different, And we have this awesome little person growing up by leaps and bounds.  She is smart and funny and the happiest little girl ever. 

Mothers day was always so hard and got harder every year.  I think about that time and know that there are women who are forever sad on that day too.  I hated going out that day.  Everyone wants to say Happy Mother's Day.  But all I wanted to do was hide at home.  It's changed for me but I know that pain.

Happy Mother's Day to all you Mom's and the ones still fighting to become one.

Job fair....

J made it to the job fair today and he has an interview set up in March with the airline of his choice. I'm happy but worried at the same time.  Praying the transfer doesn't happen at that time.  I think it's unlikely but I still have the worry in the back of my mind.  The other thing that annoyed me was that it was the only airline he went to.  I was hoping he'd go to some of the others and get some interview experience.  Sometimes I don't understand him at all.  I'm just hoping all this works out.  He's trying to get home tonight and ran into roadblocks with that too.  He's about to land at Midway but needs to get over to O'hare for the car.  I'm worried about how much this will cost us.  Maybe I could convince him to take a shuttle bus that leaves at 9:15 from Midway.  I saw it online but have no idea how this works.  It's not that pricey either.  Well, we'll see.  He's still in the air right now.