I now know why people stop blogging. The days go by so quickly when you are caring for a new human being. It's hard. So very hard and J and I aren't so young that we bounce back easily. The first month was just getting used to a new way of living and healing. After that she got Colic and when that ended, it was time for me to return to work. First week in day care she caught her first cold, then her second put her in the hospital for 3 days. Now she is 6 months old and I can't believe it. She is the light of my life.
Saturday, July 8, 2017
Sunday, January 1, 2017
This week was a very special week. On Christmas morning, I got up at 1:30 AM to use the bathroom. For a while now, I feel the urge to pee but not a lot comes out. Baby takes up most of the room in there. Anyway, this time I went and it kept on going. I told J that something was wrong. He said just lay down and see what happens. I did and kept on leaking. I knew we had to go to the hospital so I started to pack my bag but J stopped me. He was convinced that the hospital would say we were over-reacting and send us home. Well, turns out my water broke and baby was still breech so they called my doctor and she arrived by 3:30 AM. I was wheeled into the OR and they did my epidural there. I felt nothing from the neck down. It was hard to talk or breath. I was laid down, sheet was put up, anesthesiologist was talking me through everything. J was brought in and they had him sit down and hold my hand next to me. He took out his cell phone for pictures. The next thing I know, I'm looking at my baby through the screen. 12/25/16,@3:59 AM she arrived, She is 5lbs 15oz,, 18.25" long and perfect in every way. We named her Giuliana Rose. Being held up and spread all out she started to cry. J took her picture, then he went over to cut the cord. He took more pics. They laid her on my neck to do some skin to skin to skin for a few minutes. It was hard because I couldn't really hold her. After that, things are a bit blurry. I went to a recovery room but I really can't remember it. Only what J tells me. I do remember being moved to the post-partum room. The three of us stayed together in that room. I remember thinking on the operating table that this is really happening. That today, we are becoming parents. It all felt like an out of body experience. Before going into the OR when they told us we were delivering in the next hour, J thought of the fact that we didn't have a middle name. She was 3 weeks and 3 days early. She had some blood sugar issues and body temp issues but so did I. I just can't believe how much love I feel for her. I can see J does too. He loves holding her and cuddling with her. He's even good with changing diapers. We came home on 12/27 which apparently is record breaking time. Everyone I speak to has said they have been in the hospital for 3-4 days. I just wanted to go home and sleep in my own bed. J is here and looks after me when necessary. She's now 7 days old and we're trying to get into a routine as hard as it is but I'm so loving every moment of it and loving every minute of our little angel.