I've taken the next step. I've reapplied for the fertility loan a few days ago. I was able to just email the same person who I worked with back in April. I feel like a person when I speak to her. She understands. She's been through the same process and knows how stressful it can be. We got our loan just at a higher interest rate because our credit scores have dropped. I don't even care. All I cared about was getting the loan and now that is set. It's been on my mind for the last month now. I've been holding off because I wanted to see some things improve but now that I'm past most of the testing I needed done, I thought it would be good to get started. Next step is to see what's in store for J's schedule for January and get that hysteroscopy done. We've narrowed down our decision on a donor as well. Once we get started, things will move quickly. Hopefully, nothing will get in our way and we'll have our take home baby some time next year. I'm not sure how long it will take to get another recipient for our donor but hopefully it will happen in February. I'm getting anxious now.
Thursday, December 18, 2014
Monday, December 8, 2014
That moment I had sheer relief and exhaustion come over me. I almost started to cry on the phone. I know at such an early stage my recovery wouldn't be a concern. It was knowing that a diagnosis of cancer would put our plans for a baby on hold and probably end that dream altogether because of my age. I just wasn't ready to let go of that dream. We are ready to move past this bump in the road and on to the next step. Slower than I had hoped but we'll get there.