Broken trust....

 Yesterday we had a visitor.  Someone reported us to DCSF.  The report said J berates me, that J lost his temper and G was in the trunk.  It said she wasn't sure if J shoved her in there and drove that way or she went in herself.  I can say without a doubt that my daughter unbuckled her seatbelt in the driveway and jumped over the seat to the back.  We have an SUV.  He'd never drive with her like that.  This was from an RBT that comes into our home to help us with G.  To help her figure out how to manage her big feelings in a productive way.  To help her learn how to talk to people and learn how to be a friend.  How can I trust them again.  I'm not sure who filed the report but I have a guess.  When J came home from a trip, G wanted to go with him to pick up Taco Bell.  She wasn't behaving the best so the RBT said she shouldn't go and we all agreed.  G became violent with her and has been mad at her ever since.  That's G.  She holds a grudge.  She will hit, kick and do whatever it takes to make the person go away.  I remember her mentioning G's aggression and the report says she believes it's learned from someone in the house.  Interesting though.  I had to pick her up from daycare so the investigator could talk to her.  When we got home, G was having none of it  She jumped over the seat and hid in the trunk (SUV).  So she saw first hand.  She talked to me for a while and asked if she could talk to the pediatrician and a character reference.  I gave her permission and a phone number to my SIL.  I also gave her Jim's number.  She said it takes 30 days for the case to close but it should be done.  She said she'll let me know.  I called the director and she was unaware of all of this.  She also said the RBT should have come to her before doing this.  If she finds out who it was, she won't be coming back into our home.  Again, how can I trust them again.  

22 weeks...

Another week has gone by.  We found a farm for our cat to live on.  I can't believe how upsetting this was.  We've had her for 3 years and although her behavior improved greatly, she still had unpredictable aggression.  Mainly toward me.  I wish we could have fixed her of that but we ran out of time.  An old co-worker's mother in law has a farm and we brought her there.  She sent me pictures after we left and started to feel better about it.  She had her tail up high and looked like she was really enjoying herself.  My friend said she was hanging with the chickens and trying to climb the trees.  Maybe this is what she needed all along.  I was hoping for an indoor only home but no shelter would take her from us.  Now Amelia seems like she's a bit down and very clingy.  We may need to find her a playmate soon.  Other than that work is crazy.  We had a reorg and not sure how things are going to play out.  People are scared about losing there jobs.  Trying hard not to stress about it.

Symptoms I felt this week:

• Breasts still hurt
• Tired
• Belly popping out
• Sciatica pain
• Very full belly 
• Baby is definitely moving and kicks me in my bladder every once in a while
• Can't sleep a full night