I've gone over and over the finances and just don't see us doing any more treatments till later in the year. Maybe even the beginning of the new year. I'm saving money just not enough to do this treatment now. And now is when I want to do it. But knowing that there is a plan in place is helping me get through this time. I have faith that it will all unfold as it should be. I feel some responsibility in helping it along, but I know J and I are good people and I've lived, we've lived honest lives together. Nothing is ever perfect but I've seen less perfect have families too. I don't even want perfect. I want a little one or two to love and love me back. I want to be called Mom. I see all these other women like me and their dreams come true and I know ours will too.