2023 was a hard year. We had G evaluated and found out she has Level 1 Autism. A lot makes sense now but still dealing with her being so difficult with lots of big emotions and no way to handle it. Hoping for help from Autism Learning Centers but we'll see. I'm not impressed with the speed they want you to take but not them. We've called and had our paperwork done and now waiting again till they are ready to call us. This started at the end of November so you can see why I'm frustrated. And right now, I'm ready to go out with G for the afternoon but she's just whining. I can't do this or that. I can't brush my teeth, I can't walk, I can only whine very loudly. I love my girl but this part of her is hard. She doesn't say what's wrong. Just gets mad and actsw out. Doesn't say something happened or what's making her upset even if she knows why. ON PAUSE
I'm back. She's now having hot cocoa and watching her tablet. She's still a mess but happier. I on the other hand have fear and worry in the next month. I don't know how I'll pay our bills. I just don't know anymore. Jim keeps saying wait. Always has regret about something. I should have done this instead of that. I should have done that instead of this. Never happy with decisions. My bank accounts have been drained and I'm thinking I need to get a part time job. He won't do it. I'm the one who will have to work and work and work and take care of G and clean the house and run around while he takes care of himself. I've never seen anyone in my life procrastinate as much as he does. I'm stressed about this, about that, etc. I'm just so fed up with it all. And super tired today. Low energy.
Maybe, just maybe, I need to take care of myself for once.
HAPPY 2024. PRAYING FOR PEACE, LOVE AND ACCEPTANCE
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