It's been awhile since my last post. Lately I'm having moments of happiness, then sadness, moments of hope, then despair. I do think I've been through some sort of depression these past few years. Infertility has consumed my life and it's so frustrating. Will getting pregnant and having a baby solve that? Who knows anymore. I've been trying to have a baby for so long that sometimes I can't even imagine it actually happening and yet I can't imagine the rest of my life without children being part of it all.
I finally had my consult in SC. It went fairly well along with some comical moments and a little loss of dignity. I'll do whatever I need to do so my dream of motherhood comes true. One of the comical moments happened in the waiting area. We got there and checked in. Another couple was there with a set of twins. They eventually left. About five minutes later another couple comes in with another set of twins. I can see J's eyes looking over at them, then looking over at me and back at them. J looks at me and says, "OMG, it's a twin factory". I don't think it really dawned on him till that moment that if we transfer 2 embryos, we could have 2 babies. Reality check for J. I have considered the option that we do a single embryo transfer if the Dr thinks it will work. We'll see when the time comes. As of now, the transfer is scheduled for the end of Oct. Donor will be having the retrieval this weekend. I'll find out how many eggs I have then and they will be frozen till we go down in Oct. Hopefully, she'll have lots of eggs retrieved. My nurse told me the donor is doing well so far. I just need to get thru Aug and Sept and then I'll start my meds. Time will go quickly then.
Till then and to help pass the time, I'm thinking of visiting my parents at the end of Aug. My parents aren't getting any younger and I haven't been home to visit in 6 years. It's long overdue. I think I can actually use my non-rev benefits for this one. My sister has agreed to pick me up at LGA so it won't cost me anything and they really want me to visit and so do I. NY Pizza here I come.
I finally had my consult in SC. It went fairly well along with some comical moments and a little loss of dignity. I'll do whatever I need to do so my dream of motherhood comes true. One of the comical moments happened in the waiting area. We got there and checked in. Another couple was there with a set of twins. They eventually left. About five minutes later another couple comes in with another set of twins. I can see J's eyes looking over at them, then looking over at me and back at them. J looks at me and says, "OMG, it's a twin factory". I don't think it really dawned on him till that moment that if we transfer 2 embryos, we could have 2 babies. Reality check for J. I have considered the option that we do a single embryo transfer if the Dr thinks it will work. We'll see when the time comes. As of now, the transfer is scheduled for the end of Oct. Donor will be having the retrieval this weekend. I'll find out how many eggs I have then and they will be frozen till we go down in Oct. Hopefully, she'll have lots of eggs retrieved. My nurse told me the donor is doing well so far. I just need to get thru Aug and Sept and then I'll start my meds. Time will go quickly then.
Till then and to help pass the time, I'm thinking of visiting my parents at the end of Aug. My parents aren't getting any younger and I haven't been home to visit in 6 years. It's long overdue. I think I can actually use my non-rev benefits for this one. My sister has agreed to pick me up at LGA so it won't cost me anything and they really want me to visit and so do I. NY Pizza here I come.
