Lately, J has been having struggles. He wants to change but hasn't been able to figure out how to do it. His struggles have been affecting me. Affecting us. I don't feel like we'll ever have a normal life and it scares me. I don't want to think I've wasted my life with this man who has promised me that he'll change over and over again. We are almost married 16 years and I feel like I'm listening to a broken record over and over again. I want to support him but right now I feel lost on how to do that. I feel the struggle when he is home and resentment when he is away. When he is away, he is the man I want. When he is home he is someone else. And it saddens me.
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Praying that things get better and hoping that you both can re-kindle that love you felt for one another when the relationship was new.
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