My sister calls me daily with updates on my Dad. He is in end stage dementia. They are going to put a feeding tube in because he can't swallow anymore. I believe that's because of the Parkinson's and not the dementia. Anyway, other than the feeding tube, nothing heroic will be done. We'll visit him in a nursing home till he finally passes on. I just don't want him to be in any pain or discomfort. He deserves to feel comfortable at this point in his life.
I'm trying to be patient on the baby front. I'm hoping to see what we qualify for in a medical loan. I want to get this show on the road or at least know what we need to do to get there. I'm not sure what we'll qualify for but we should qualify for something. I've been very careful. I've paid down almost all the credit cards. Our income to debt has improved and we've been extended more credit for our current cards which looks good too. I was hoping to do this in December but I didn't want to do anything till that loan shows paid in full. I feel like time is ticking away and it's so painful sometimes. I've worked at my company for almost 8 years and I've seen people get married, have child after child, growing their families. And my family has just been J and I and our cats. I'm so tired of this waiting game. I wish our credit didn't stink. I wish it was 10 years earlier and we had all the credit cards we needed to do this. Maybe this is for the best but I can't see that now. I feel stress and anxiety all the time. I'm trying to relax but it's so hard to do. Luckily I have my cats which give lots of snuggles.
I'm trying to be patient on the baby front. I'm hoping to see what we qualify for in a medical loan. I want to get this show on the road or at least know what we need to do to get there. I'm not sure what we'll qualify for but we should qualify for something. I've been very careful. I've paid down almost all the credit cards. Our income to debt has improved and we've been extended more credit for our current cards which looks good too. I was hoping to do this in December but I didn't want to do anything till that loan shows paid in full. I feel like time is ticking away and it's so painful sometimes. I've worked at my company for almost 8 years and I've seen people get married, have child after child, growing their families. And my family has just been J and I and our cats. I'm so tired of this waiting game. I wish our credit didn't stink. I wish it was 10 years earlier and we had all the credit cards we needed to do this. Maybe this is for the best but I can't see that now. I feel stress and anxiety all the time. I'm trying to relax but it's so hard to do. Luckily I have my cats which give lots of snuggles.
Hoping you'll be able to afford infertility treatments soon. Thinking of you!
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