Wife of a pilot and part time husband, and our journey to grow our family...and now an entrepreneur.
Tuesday, December 25, 2012
More about the holidays...
Sunday, December 23, 2012
Conversations...
Sunday, December 16, 2012
Holidays and resolutions....
It was a simple card and easy to do and I didn't need to buy any supplies to make them. Not my best but not the worst either. Every year, I say I'm going to make 5 unique cards a month and this way, by the time the holidays arrive, I'll have more than enough cards to send out with any stress. The problem is that I've been preoccupied with other things and I think it's time to enjoy myself as much as possible next year. I've been going to the gym and working on getting myself healthy again. I've commited to going to the gym 4 days a week and so far, it's been going well. My goal is to lose another 15 to 20 lbs by summer time. I know I can do it even though I live with an enabler. Another goal is to visit my friend in Florida early next year. I don't have to much money to spend but I think I can swing a long weekend to visit an old friend. Might even do me some good as well as her. I need things to look forward to and this is one of those things. We also plan to go visit J's family in January on his vacation. I kind of insisted on it especially since it's been a while since we've seen everyone and I know we will have a wonderful time. Actually, I'm pretty excited about the visit. It's giving me something to smile about.
Friday, December 14, 2012
Trying to get by....
Tuesday, December 4, 2012
Insensitive people...
Sunday, November 25, 2012
Vacation is over...
Wednesday, November 21, 2012
Hitting an all time low...
Saturday, November 17, 2012
WTF appointment coming up....
Sunday, November 11, 2012
Why me....
Friday, November 9, 2012
Stress, stress and yet, more stress.....
Sunday, November 4, 2012
J has left for work and now I'm alone....
The other thing is that I've had such fatigue since I had the transfer. Most likely from the huge amount of progesterone that says it may cause drowsiness. I'm not sure how I'll get through a day of work with this fatigue but I'll manage. And hopefully, one day this week, I'll be pleasantly surprised. I have been POAS since yesterday but it's been negative. I expected it to be. I think the earliest would be tomorrow if I'm lucky. Of course, even if all my HPT's are negative, the final result is the HCG blood test on Friday. That's the one that counts and you never know as each woman's level of HCG can be different. I'm so glad J will be coming home on that day.
Friday, November 2, 2012
Almost the end of my vacation...
Wednesday, October 31, 2012
Bad news...
Tuesday, October 30, 2012
PUPO and hopeful....
Friday, October 26, 2012
Another day of waiting...
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
So far, we're on track....
Tuesday, October 23, 2012
Tomorrow is judgement day....
Saturday, October 13, 2012
Finally started.....
Monday, August 27, 2012
Family Visit
This past weekend I went to visit my family in NY. It's been 6 years since I've seen everyone. My sister and mom have mentioned that my dad isn't doing too well. In fact my sister says the same about my mom but I think she's just fine. Anyway, I used J's flight benefits. I don't do it often and in fact have only used them once before. Everything went very well. No problems getting checked in and in fact, I even got to sit in first class in both directions. It was nice seeing everyone but 4 days was enough. My family hasn't changed one bit other than getting older. I even told my older sister about my fertility issues. She had fertility issues too although they are different than mine. She said she wouldn't say anything to anyone. For the last 5 years all I've wanted was to just tell them the good news that I'm pregnant but it never happened. Just two more months and we will be in SC for the transfer. Right now it feels like it's going to take forever to get here.
Friday, August 10, 2012
Getting by and surviving...
Thursday, August 9, 2012
Bad Days...
Monday, August 6, 2012
Progress...
Monday, July 30, 2012
Next Steps...
I finally had my consult in SC. It went fairly well along with some comical moments and a little loss of dignity. I'll do whatever I need to do so my dream of motherhood comes true. One of the comical moments happened in the waiting area. We got there and checked in. Another couple was there with a set of twins. They eventually left. About five minutes later another couple comes in with another set of twins. I can see J's eyes looking over at them, then looking over at me and back at them. J looks at me and says, "OMG, it's a twin factory". I don't think it really dawned on him till that moment that if we transfer 2 embryos, we could have 2 babies. Reality check for J. I have considered the option that we do a single embryo transfer if the Dr thinks it will work. We'll see when the time comes. As of now, the transfer is scheduled for the end of Oct. Donor will be having the retrieval this weekend. I'll find out how many eggs I have then and they will be frozen till we go down in Oct. Hopefully, she'll have lots of eggs retrieved. My nurse told me the donor is doing well so far. I just need to get thru Aug and Sept and then I'll start my meds. Time will go quickly then.
Till then and to help pass the time, I'm thinking of visiting my parents at the end of Aug. My parents aren't getting any younger and I haven't been home to visit in 6 years. It's long overdue. I think I can actually use my non-rev benefits for this one. My sister has agreed to pick me up at LGA so it won't cost me anything and they really want me to visit and so do I. NY Pizza here I come.
Friday, June 22, 2012
It's been awhile....
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
Normal...
Anyway, it's now the end of May and I just don't know when we'll be ready to do a donor cycle. I was hoping to have a donor lined up, and another couple to do the split with by now but it's not looking good. I've researched other clinics and even those don't seem to be working out well. I won't give up. It's my dream to have a family. I'll keep researching clinics and I'll keep on calling the NC & SC clinics and continue to save as much money as possible. I did come up with a game plan if this split cycle doesn't work out. By Nov we should have enough to pay for a full cycle. Hopefully, we'll have a donor in mind, and we'll go ahead and pay for the cycle. Then we'll wait till the new year and start a new FSA account with an additional 5K and pay for the medications and monitoring. I really wanted to do this before my birthday this year but I need to accept that's not going to happen. Anyway, having a plan really helps me with the disappointment.